amazing how much things change in such a short amount of time. i mean really, last week i was really lonely and depressed and stuff.. and today i was so happy that i swore i thought i might die. i asked myself many times "is it healthy to be this happy?"
this happyness is provided to me because this past weekend, i kind of hooked up with my friend. we were being a little flirty before, but i never actually thought about liking her or anything.. next thing i know were making out while her sister sleeps next to us.
i had a good time
very good
i be happy

iv never felt like this, and not like, love or something, its like an actual caring and yearning desire for someone. i was in love once, i actaully only fully got over her like a week ago because she is being a dick to me. but this just feels so right, its wierd! i like am not asking questions and doughting myslef. i mean i annalyze things sooooo much, like down to the very last atom and then on. i pick apart every thought or concerne i ever have. but i dont want to now, and i dont have reason to either.... sure she is a junior, so what!? i really couldnt care less, plus im taller then her so, yeah. ^.^

my sister always told me to stop looking for someone, and to just let them come to you. i never thought it would work! or at least not so fast and like this. i love life. and yet hate it too. funny how that is. @.@